This is kind of a continuation of my “I’m a lazy quitter post”. I have the strong feeling that the two are connected…
Something I think most people don’t know about me is that I am INCREDIBLY competitive. Like when I lose I want to cry and never play the game/do the activity again.
I am aware this is pathetic, irrational, and absurd. Especially considering that if I happen to have a talent, I have yet to find out what it is. Plus, who wants to feel like a spoiled brat whenever they lose at something.
My way of dealing with this is simple. I don’t try. If you ever play something with me (that isn’t basically a game of chance), you might notice my lack of effort. Or you might just think that I am mentally/physically handicapped. Take bowling for instance. I calmly walk up to the lane and gently toss my ball towards the pins. Or frisbee golf, where I lazily lob my frisbee in the general direction of the hole.
If I don’t make an effort, if I’m not trying to win, then its fun to play. When I am attempting to win, it becomes stressful and upsetting. My husband thinks this is ridiculous, and I should find a happy medium, but I figure better to look like an idiot than a spoiled brat!