Clomid failed me for the fourth time last cycle. Actually it made me ovulate on time and I barely spotted before my period, so it kinda did what it was supposed to but, still not pregnant. I mean I didn’t expect it to work, but I was hoping. Kind of like how after 59 cycles of trying to get pregnant I am pretty sure I know that I am not going to, but every month I am just sure this is my month. You know until I start bleeding to death from my girl parts.
So I was all out of Clomid and still not pregnant, so I decided to try Soy Isoflavones. Supposedly it works like Clomid but its natural. In case you don’t know, Clomid makes your body think it needs to produce more estrogen. You take it just the same as Clomid but a double dose.
I looked all over for Soy Isoflavones, but the only place I could find them (the health store was closed) was in supplements for menopausal women. I, of course, bought them.
I’m not sure they worked, as my temperature have been really wonky again. I can’t tell if I ovulated, or when I ovulated, but all my trackers say that I have, so I guess I will trust them. Hopefully in a couple weeks I will not be bleeding, pee on a stick and see two little pink lines. I mean it could happen.
The side effects of the Soy Isoflavones were wonderful! I am pretty darn sure that I don’t produce enough estrogen. Because I can’t really explain it, but I felt like myself again. I wasn’t as on edge or angry or depressed. Since I came off birth control (like 5 years ago) I have not been very stable. I mean I am female so I was a little crazy before, but it got way worse. Michael even noticed and said that he like my medicine it made me nicer. Now that my estrogen is back to post ovulatory low levels I am feeling worse. So even without my temperatures I think I ovulated at some point in the last week or so. On a grosser note, it also gave me way more cervical mucus, which while disgusting is essential to conception.
So if this month is a bust, I am taking it again. Not to get me pregnant but to make me feel better. Hopefully I will be pregnant and my ordeal will be over. Hey, a girl can dream right?